Just a Dream..."Oh gosh! Would you please be so kind and follow my lesson?"Yeah, my teacher was talking to me...again.Somehow I didn't care about it. Actually that wasn't normal for me, because I really like my english lessons at school. Well, not this time."Yeah, we all know that you have a visitor with you, but please concentrate on this little translation task here, would you?""Yayaya, I'll do it..."I looked around and the pupil sitting next to me, well she looked at me with jealous and disappointed eyes.Something I didn't care about much either.We were lucky, the lessons just ended with the nice sound of the schoolbell.I packed my things together, took her hand and we went out on the corridor.Everyone was rushing along, right next to us.Still holding our hands, we kissed us.It was somekind of funny, because nobody saw her before, nobody knew her and well, she was my girlfriend. Which was another think, most of the others couldn't understand neither.She came with me at home, simply bec
I won't be there anymore.Let her go. They said inside of him.I can't.Why do you keep hurting yourself? They asked him.I deserve it.Please stop it. They begged him.I won't.Is it worth it? They started to ask.I don't know.What is it now? They wanted to know.I lost her.Did you? They tried to cheer him up.Yes, I did.How do you know? They asked him again.She's not the same anymore....and? They bugged him.And that won't be the person that I learned to love.And now you're holding on memories and dreams. They noted.Wasn't it obvious?Maybe. We don't know. Did you know it? They exhausted their border.Shut up!We won't. Because you won't. Wasn't that obvious? They nailed him down....Wait! PLEASE! STOP IT! Think of it, she wouldn't want you to do something like this. They begged him to stop himself.No. Remember? She's not there anymore.I won't be there anymore.
The Art of breaking apartRight now or better, lately he was in a strange situation of not knowing what he exactly want, nor what he doesn't want.The last few weeks were filled with sickness and disgust towards other people and since yesterday evening it started to turn around.Again.He was in a good mood today, but somehow he denied it;"I have the feeling that I don't deserve it now or later. It just feels not right."Being alone and sad is something he learned to appreciate.After a lot of disappointments, trustless stories and bitterness,the wish for a person who stays with him is somehow gone.Maybe it'll come back in some days or weeks or maybe even months but not now.He doesn't know it. He said, that he can't force those thoughts and feelingsagain on his mind.It would finally break apart.